The big O word. 

Ovulation. This weekend was my first ovulation since our loss and I did not realize how much it was going to affect me. I have struggled so much mentally the last few days, today… And I’m sure this whole week I will struggle. I think it was that it actually could happen, and yet I’m being told by doctors and family and Garrett that we can’t/shouldn’t yet. 

Sounds so childish, but it just is so unfair and just like time slows down SO much when your pregnant…. It also slows down when your trying to be pregnant. We can start trying again in 3 weeks and I just have to try to stay as positive about our time and it being meant to be whenever it happens. 

The more I tell myself this, the more I’ll believe it right? 😜

Sick… 

I may be sick, but I still gotta take care of my family! Got it together to make an easy but healthy dinner for us.  

 
I made a mixture of basil spinach ricotta Parmesan mozzarella garlic salt and pepper and then sliced the chicken horizontally and put the mixture inside. Baked it in my convection oven at 400 for 30 minutes. Then just chopped some Brussels sprouts, broccoli, zucchini, red onion, and asparagus… Drizzled with olive oil and put a little garlic salt on them and baked for 20 min. Easy and delicious ❤️

OOTD💗

  
Not sure if it gets more classic then this but it’s always a go to when I can’t figure out something to wear. We were going to a masquerade bunco party and I didn’t want to be over the top dressed up, but wanted to still look cute AND be comfortable since I knew I was gonna be moving around all night. I went with dark skinnies that I cuffed since I was wearing black wedges. Wedges are a way to look dressier but are SO comfortable. Paired that with a basic black Tee(tj maxx) and a silver and white statement necklace(icing) to also tie in my silver and white mask I wore. Curled my hair with a curling wand & messed up the curls some. I had on plum lipstick on as well, black smokey eye, and did a dramatic cat eye liner that is hard to see on the picture. 

Lightning speed

As I compare the ENORMOUS change just one year has brought us…. I find myself scrambling to try to slow it down. 

   
 How did my baby go from still having baby fat in her face and no hair to totally looking like a little girl!?! One year seamlessly keeps slipping into the next and although each stage is amazingly fun, entertaining, and challenging all in one, I hope I don’t forget all these adorable moments & quirks of havens. 

Like the fact while haven is drinking her bottle and falling asleep her feet tap like she’s hearing a beat only she can hear. 

Or her ridiculously sweet voice. I don’t think I’ve ever heard anything so sweet. 

The lip sync concerts she puts on for us. 

Her talented dance moves 🙂 

Her outgoing and out there personality. She is so funny,independent, and compassionate… Sensitive but tough all at the same time. 

Getting dinners and snacks made for me by “havens kitchen”her growing imagination is fascinating. The things she comes up with are hilarious. 

I’m going to miss the moments that haven still wants to be in a sling to just lay on me or asks me “snuggle?” 

The way she tells me “luh you mommy” 

Her love for music is so fun for me to see. I always have loved music and can hear rhythm really well but never did anything with it. I see haven being very talented in this area. 

But whatever she decides, I know she is going to excel because she just seems to pick anything up. I could not be more proud of her. 🎀

OUTFITS💗

   
 
For a costume tea party for Haven today I was trying to be somewhat festive 😎🎃 I went for an orange and white chevron printed flowy top(rue21)  with some black leggings and black tall boots from Ross. I wore some drop black lace earrings and curled my hair. I had some nude colored lipstick on as well to give it a more fall look. 

   
 
Love love LOVE this outfit on Haven. Havens wearing a pink + grey sweater she got for her birthday with some black tights. Wearing the same color shoes as your pants gives a very elongating look, and even though it doesn’t matter if haven looks taller or not, I think she definitely looks tall here! These boots are adorable! They’re black lace up (with zippers on the sides) with rhinestones on the sides of them. Sooooo perfect. 

Rainy Day Fun

Just because it’s rainy out doesn’t mean you can’t still have creative fun with your toddler!! 💗 this morning Haven and I had some fun painting in a different way. 

   
 
While I got the original idea from yep… Pinterest, the original “recipe” called for shaving cream + food coloring. I am not a huge fan of food coloring as I’m sure it’s just all chemicals and I had no idea how washable it would be. I guess I could have tested it first but who has time for that.  So…. I opted for shaving cream + washable neon paint. It worked soooo well and being in the bath made it so haven could be as messy as she wanted to be and the clean up was so simple.  So, although we can’t be running around and playing outside today, I still found a way to have some sensory fun and now you can too! ❤️

   
 

Foooooood🙌🏼

So, I was super lame and forgot to write about the spaghetti squash. It was so easy, and really delicious. I’ve never made it before and I was surprised with how much I liked it. I baked it whole in the oven at 375 for an hour. Then cut it in half and cleaned out all the seeds and”guts” then…. With a fork just literally scrape from top to bottom and it falls out in long noodle type strands. I just put them all on a plate and then heated up some butter and Garlic in a pan. Added some dried basil leaves because I didn’t have any fresh basil, added the squash and cooked for another 10 minutes or so on medium and added Parmesan here and there. That’s it! Has an amazing flavor and a nice crunch to it. 

Last night while my mother + grandma were over I made a pretty easy baked tortellini dish. 

  
I cooked up 20 oz of frozen tortellini and then set it aside. Cooked up one chicken breast in Italian seasoning and garlic then diced it up and put it in the pan with the tortellini. Add chopped up zucchini, a 14 oz jar of artichoke hearts, halved cherry tomatoes, and mozzarella cheese.in the skillet I cooked the chicken in I put a teaspoon of garlic, cup of milk, 1/4 cup of basil pesto and ….. 5 tablespoons of butter. Yeah, that’s a shit ton I know- but whatever. Everything is better with butter 😎 then added 1/4 cup + I added a little more Parmesan and pour it over the ingredients in the 13×9 pan. Mix it all together and cook uncovered for 30-40 minutes on 375. It was so delicious, and not much prep. 

Outfit of the Night❤️

I feel like I haven’t gotten ready in….. Well, all week. It’s just been a weird week and so when we had plans to hang out with some friends I took the opportunity to get ready. Putting together an outfit and getting to just sit and do my makeup with no interruptions is rare but amazing for me. 

   
 
I went for a pretty casual look. I wore a charcoal gray graphic T that I actually just got as a gift from target recently so it’s still there! 12 bucks👍 and some distressed jeans with short brown studded boots. I wanted my outfit to look good together without looking too put together so I went for dark brown boots instead of the obvious black choice. I had a plum lipstick on and curled a few pieces of my hair then sprayed it with sea salt spray, flipped my head upside down, scrunched some, flipped it back and scrunched a little more. Gives it a messy but cute look to it. Easy! Which is why I love my hair these days. Soooooo low maintenance!!  

Meal plan… Tuesday 

its Tuesday, not Monday.. I fully realize that.  Yesterday was an AMAZING day though (which I plan to write about later) and I just didn’t have time to write. Our meal plans for the week are:

Monday- we had leftover tri tip steak from Sunday night & I made spaghetti squash noodles cooked in garlic butter Parmesan & dried basil leaves (AMAZING!!!!) and some raw broccoli. 

Tuesday: crockpot chicken,creamy,green chile enchilada soup. 

Wednesday: pesto tortellini bake 

Thursday- sausage &artichoke bake 

Friday-Saturday kinda just wingin it since our plans usually vary so much. 

Sunday- celebrating my beautiful nieces birthday with dinner @ my sisters ❤️ 

I’ll be posting the squash recipe tonight because it was so good & any other ones throughout the week that are great.